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Nothing’s ever lost forever
They’re just stuck inside the corners
And when you need it the most
It’ll be there before you know it
But there’s part of me that hopes
Hoping you will never let me go
Now watch me tie this rope on a branch
As I wrap it around my neck

You don’t have to worry
The only victim here is me

Don’t hang around at the cemetery
You’re gonna catch a cold
I want you to grow up, be happy
Live your dreams, be healthy
Everything I couldn’t be

Brother
It was never your fault
I was too hard on you
I just wanted it to be perfect
But I never stopped loving you
No use saying all of that now
Please take care of mom and dad

And I know that you’ll blame yourself
But please; I’m begging you
SUNNY, let me go!

There’s still a part of me that wishes I could haunt you forever
I don’t want to say goodbye
I wanna live and stay alive
I want to see his face again
I don't want to die

But when it happens
You have to let it go

Everyone has a reason for living
Nobody wants to give up the feeling
Then it’s fear keeping us all alive then
Scared of loss, scared of death; so that’s life then
I’m afraid of my life, of my shame
Not desiring the fall, it’s the terror of flames
So that’s why I can’t stay even if I had tried
And I tried
And I tried
And I tried
And I tried

Be your perfect sister or die trying
Rather hang myself than see you crying
Feeling morbid cause you saw me dying
Everyone has a reason for lying
I can sing, you will hear a eulogy
Write every night instead of saying sorry
Hearing you weep through the door, whispering, pleading
“I miss you, MARI”

I’m at the edge now
About to fall off
Fire’s getting closer
Head for the exit
I’m jumping off
This is my goodbye then
Don’t try to understand
You weren’t here
Read the papers
Made it to the news, dad
Are you proud of me yet
Guess I doubt it
Everyone has a reason for trying
Everyone has a reason for fighting
Fuck buying flowers!
I want you to move on
Take a bus to nowhere
Anywhere that’s not here
Somewhere far away
Bring all our friends
Just don’t think about me
Never feel sorry
Everyone wants to cling onto life
Nobody wants to say goodbye
If there is one last thing I can say to you
“SUNNY, thank you for being alive.”

No one's ever lost forever
When I die, I’ll go away
But I will visit you occasionally
Do not be afraid

No one's ever lost forever
They are caught inside your heart
If you garden them and water them
They make you what you are

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“No one's ever lost forever
When you died, you went away
But you will visit me occasionally
I won’t be afraid

No one's ever lost forever
Memories are where you reside
I will keep them in a song
That’s how I can stay alive.”

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from Lily of the Valley, released November 29, 2021

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JohnJRenns South Korea

The former musical alias of Cecily Renns. cecilyrenns.bandcamp.com

“Frankly, pop culture is a bit better at rocking people emotionally than the better chunk of the so-called fine arts.” - Kadono Kouhei, authour of ‘Boogiepop’

“...소위 팝컬쳐라 불리는 게 있다. 예술이라 하기엔 좀 그렇긴 한데 하여튼 사람의 마음을 뒤흔드는 점에 간해서는 어정쩡한 파인 아트보다 힘이 세기도 하는 놈이다.” - 카도노 코우헤이, '부기팝' 작가
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