Sunlight on an autumn porch
When I go outside, it blinds my eyes
It’s a scorch
Melts my freezing heart until there is none left
Perfect as it seems, there’ll be nothing else left
‘Self’ is like a glass window
When it shatters, it reveals who I am with a crescendo
It’s an imitation game and I’m the only actress
I become everyone else’s favourite version of me
Because I literally can’t imagine what it’d be like
To live as someone who doesn’t live off validation
Determination got me feeling high
Got you in a bind
You cry
Will you ever catch the lie?
Bleeding palms and a weeping face
Fingers with calluses leave behind a trace
You made another mistake
You made another mistake

Well, it’s true, I’ve been writing letters
And I heard that you’re getting better
I hate that it makes me glad you’re fine without me
Was it worth it now?

I won’t lie, I’ve been acting stranger
These feelings are a heartbreak exchanger
One day you’ll hear these songs
Maybe you’ll ask me:
“Was it worth it now?”
Of course it was!

And when it’s all said and done
There’ll be nothing left but bones
And when I’m dead and gone
You’re never gonna be alone

Pride is like a death trap
A counterpart to love
Because you have to be conceited to care for those you love
It’s a new game of heart invader
I’m a hell raiser and a life trader
It’s a lonely path I’m never going back from
When you see me alive, I’ll have failed my mission
I’ll be suffocating mid air as you try to get me down
Foam is forming at the mouth
It’s a heart-break-down
Save a breath
I know how to keep it straight
Eyes are going white and my skin is going pale
Eventually, everything will stop
You’ll look up at me and say,
“What has she become?”
I hope you’ll never forget even when your hair is going grey
It’s one of many ways I’ll never go away
You’re getting better every day
You’re getting better every day

Well, it’s true, I’ve been writing letters
And I heard that you’re getting better
I hate that it makes me glad you’re fine without me
Was it worth it now?

I won’t lie, I’ve been acting stranger
These feelings are a heartbreak exchanger
One day you’ll hear these songs
Maybe you’ll ask me:
“Was it worth it now?”
Of course it was!

And when it’s all said and done
There’ll be nothing left but bones
And when I’m dead and gone
You’re never gonna be alone

He told me it’d end this way
I swear I’m your worst mistake
I knew it would end this way
My love’s like a deadly phase