(He doesn’t know
Just how I feel
Nobody cares
They just don’t seem to understand)

Mother tells me I’m the fucked one
Shame she couldn't get a lucked one
Thankfully, I’m what you call the woke one
So then “fate” can go and cuck one
And fucking suck one

Roll of the dice
Wasn't destined to be nice
So I’ll spill out all my vice, at least that will suffice
A game of cat and mice where I'm the only hunted
If someone did want me, I wouldn't be this wanted
Muddied, my visions been all blurry
Hurried, haven't had the time to worry
Feel it, share my pain with you
Kill it, care, even a little will do

I’ve been taking the backseat
It happened again that week
They told me I was lacking
That they didn't get me laughing
(HA)
Never told them that they had to
When I cried for help, they didn't know I meant you
Felt hopeless, good thing I was ropeless
Would've ended it before
COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE

Manically depressed at my own pace
Setting up my own demise in my space
Don't kid me, cause once they've got the info
I know they'd be telling me I am an-hero
Sink into sorrow and cry with your pillow
Just like a fucked widow, freezing at absolute zero
That's when we've past the intro
Tell me you'd tell them that I am an-hero

Bruised on the body and scarred on the mind
Now you know why I only wear long sleeves
Leaving marks on me with whatever I can find
Fucking myself up is what relieves-
This pain
Can’t be kept sane
Spill out my brain
Cause I am to blame
When that bat hit me I knew for sure it would hurt
But I smiled as the tears fell down at my shirt
Red bleeding on my left eye, blue soaking up the right eye
If to die was this colourful, I wouldn't even ask why
It was so beautiful, both verbally and physically
Two different kinds of pain inflicted on me simultaneously

When I was left alone
I couldn't stand on my own
When you came to pick me up
I thought to myself: “maybe this is enough”
You yelled “why didn't you run”
I said “I was just having fun”
But you didn't think thats what was done
Yeah, I don't deserve “fun,” I deserve none
You wiped my tears with that rosy handkerchief
Said “can't stand you looking like this,” you told your sis
“please promise me you wont hurt yourself or let yourself be hurt”
Couldn't answer, cause I didn’t want you to be hurt

Manically depressed at my own pace
Setting up my own demise in my space
Don't kid me, cause once they've got the info
I know they'd be telling me I am an-hero
Sink into sorrow and cry with your pillow
Just like a fucked widow, freezing at absolute zero
That's when we've past the intro
Tell me you'd tell them that I am an-hero

COVER UR FACE 'N' OPEN EVERY WINDOW
COULD I RISE LIKE A MYTHICAL HERO
CADAVER PARTY, CRYING A WIDOW
DON'T HAVE THE GUTS YET, THAT'S WHY MY WIN’S LOW
COVER UR FACE 'N' OPEN EVERY WINDOW
COULD I RISE LIKE A MYTHICAL HERO
CADAVER PARTY, CRYING A WIDOW
DON'T HAVE THE GUTS YET, THAT'S WHY MY WIN’S LOW

(But it’s time they found out
What true true true love is all about
Deep shadows surround me)

- Faith