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Intro
02:41
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Heart:
We’re queer, fucked up and strange
Beautiful all the same
I’m singing, “Never change!”
I think I might go insane
Soul, are you really there?
Or just text on a screen
I want to see your face
I just want to be seen
Soul:
Boy, you never shut up, do you
You go and on about some musician
Well, I heard the songs that you sent
Singing,
“Fight on, punch through
Two girls, and three chords.”
Did you get those DMs I sent?
The meetup spot and time that we’ll spend
Heart, I wanna see you as well
It’s my first time so we’re in this together
Heart & Soul:
Woah oh
Woah oh
We're singing
Woah oh
Do my best to never get tired
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Heart:
Listening to Anxie on my earphones
Looking at my watch, it’s almost time
I look around to see if you’re there
Thinking back on it, I only know your voice
OMG, I’m dumb; we never thought this through
I guess there’s only one thing left to do
Soul:
There are too many damn people on this street
You aren’t picking up
This is going as expected
Then I hear an off-tune singing...
“I got a guitar I can let out all my sorrows to”
I could recognize that voice anywhere
Our eyes lock in
You stop and smile
Heart:
Then we run away
From the booing noise of crowds
I take your hand
I swear it isn’t weird
If friends are all we are, why am I so shaken up?
So could we stay like this for a moment
Let’s get away from this thing called life
Come a bit closer
Don’t let this be over
Bro, don’t tell me it’s a dream
I can’t believe we’re here like this, face to face
And not restricted in cyberspace
Higher than ever
Always together
Bro, you’re my best friend for life
Soul:
And we catch our breath
Boy, I swear you’re nuts as hell
It’s crazy how you can’t help yourself
You’re just as dumb as I thought you’d be
Why am I so drawn into you?
Heart:
So could we stay like this for a moment
Let’s get away from this thing called life
Come a bit closer
Don’t let this be over
Bro, don’t tell me it’s a dream
Heart & Soul:
We’re falling down deeper every minute
When you are here, the sky’s the limit
It’s almost night
I don’t wanna say goodbye
Bro, will I see you again?
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Heart:
Hey, you sound a little bit down
I can tell when you’re like that
Please speak up when you are
I can’t read your mind
I know I may seem overbearing
It’s just how I am
Don’t tell me you’re fed up
Please tell me when you’ve had enough
Because we are sad
We’re alone and we’re bound
But you know I am here
So when you feel down
Just call me
Just call me
I’m worried
Bro, it’s alright
We can make it through the night
It’s not gay that I’m worried for my friend, right?
Set it alight
I’ll text you
Waiting until my phone lights up
My heart feels like a dynamite
Blow up, ignite
Soul, I’m also feeling blue
I hope these feelings can get through
So that I will never worry about missing you!
At school
Thinking of what you said this morning
Oh god, is that weird
Sneaking my phone out
Open Discord and hang out
Soul:
Hey, boy
What the hell are you doing
I mean, are you dumb or what?
I told you I’m homeschooled
I swear, you’re hilarious
Heart:
Yeah, guess you’re right
Sometimes I feel insecure
Folks often tell me to be more mature
I’m sorry
Don’t worry
About me
Heart & Soul:
Bro, it’s alright
We can make it through the night
It’s not gay that I’m worried for my friend, right?
Set it alight
I’ll text you
Waiting until my phone lights up
My heart feels like a dynamite
Blow up, ignite
Soul:
Heart, I know we’re far apart
But you can’t let this be a scar
Heart: Then I’ll do my best to never get tired
Heart & Soul:
Let me be with you
Heart: I will do my best to never get tired
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4. |
Teenage Mirage
03:28
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Soul:
Sitting all alone in the afternoon
Watching Tim Rogers for the whole day
And I get a ping so I call you up
You go off on one of your tirades
I didn’t catch a single word of that
So I post a GIF and the word “Bruh”
You giggle and I smirk
And I think about how you’re adorable when you laugh
It’s them versus you and me
They are never gonna let us be free
You say that you feel afraid
And I’m scared that I will say the wrong words
Blow away
We are gonna blow the night away
So boy, don’t you ever change
Heart:
I don’t know if I even make sense
Can I be sure if you even care?
Soul:
What you love makes me stronger
Let your cringe become a superpower
That’s why I act so austere
We’re conditioned to fear being queer
So I find you marvelous
There’s no way I can admit that to you, though
Heart & Soul:
Blow away
We are gonna blow the night away
So boy, don’t you ever change
Don’t seal away what you love
You’re inspiring when you say all this stuff
Can’t take it away from us
Own it, kill it
This is our masterpiece
So you are a fucked up boy
Living in a fucked up, messed up world
Then why don’t you take a shot?
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Heart:
His lips are dangerous
He’s dirty
He’s a gravedigger
A heartsnatcher
He’s mean when he tops
I want to be enveloped
He’s a world ender
Soft and tender
Soul:
We’re autistic
They call us retarded
We are queer and strange
And we never change
We’re the faggots who bite
Won’t go down without a fight
Break out of this lane
Unhinged, insane
(THEY’RE GONNA FUCK US LIKE A -)
Heart: Are my fantasies just teenage daydreams?
Soul: Are these thoughts of mine not what they seem?
Heart: Is it weird his voice drives me crazy?
Soul: Am I fucked up or is this feeling just me?
(THEY’RE GONNA FUCK US LIKE AN ANIMAL)
Soul:
It’s the prison of shame
Playing imitation games
They think they know us
They think they know us
We’re the antonymphs
They’re not our pimps
I’m not a wimp
We aren’t their simps
So be musicians of sedition
Don’t fall into their submission!
Heart:
Yeah, bro
I’m calling
I’m letting you know
For some reason, tonight
I feel lonely
Let’s chat
Until our batteries run out
The night is short, boy
So walk on
Soul:
Yeah, I know, don’t worry bout it
You don’t bother me; it’s fine
It’s not weird you’re having these thoughts
So let’s do our best to never get tired
Heart:
I don’t think you’re wrong for being mad
Man, this world’s messed up; it’d be weird if you aren’t
We can’t let them fuck us all day
So let’s do our best to never get tired
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7. |
Pop Star Boyfriend
09:22
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Heart:
What's being "queer"?
If not overcoming and embracing what you fear?
Becoming who you really want to be
Love is such a shameful, terrible word
Because what we love defines ourselves
And what we make out of love is ‘us’
What’s being “gay”?
Is it being called a fag or being told to go away?
But we’re more than all of that; than the violence and the hate
Maybe love is what we make of it
And the songs they inspire us to make
Then love - So let us love, my dear
We’ll be fine in the end
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
No longer just pretend
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
These moments that we spend
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Love can always transcend
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Let’s go beyond what trends
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Don’t have to make amends
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Everything I defend
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Bro, you can recommend
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Yeah, say it once again
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
I said that I like men
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
Say it one more time then
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
I said I love you, man
I wanna be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Pop Star Boyfriend
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8. |
Tokimeki Memorial
01:46
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"Back in those days, I'll admit. I often flat out lied both to other people and myself about what I liked. I pretended to hate music of any kind. My high school offered a Japanese class and I really wanted to take that class; though I took Spanish instead because I didn't want to look weird. Can't say what exactly was wrong with me - Probably, it was the same thing that's always going to be wrong with a lot of people, American and otherwise. Some of us are so ashamed of even the most innocent aspects of who we are that eventually, we run out of people to be."
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Soul:
When I was young, my father said to me
“You better stand up for your family”
But can they even recognize me?
How can I trust them not to out me
So Anxie sang to Emma three small words
How could she do that without feeling worse?
Oh, Heart, I wish I could reply right now
I hope that you were here to show me how
How can I say I love you?
All these feelings are piercing me through
Maybe I need to grow up
Need to get over this love
How can I say I love you?
Can I shout it out just like you do?
I don't think I can ignore this
Can't deny that I'm longing for your kiss
I knew I can't put them away
I knew that I liked you that way
It's wonderful that it's mutual
But how could we live on like it's usual?
Heart:
How can I say I love you?
Boy, we are reborn anew
Yeah, I said that I love you
Soul:
And I said I love you too
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Heart:
This winter is, and has been, so lonely
It’s been weeks since we last saw face to face
I’m typing this message all hold up
We’re in lockdown and quarantined
Pieces of your voice
They’re scattered in signals
Can I reach you?
But I am never giving up
Until I can get through
They will never break us
They can’t separate us
This whole world is fucked up
But bro, I don’t want to die
Till I hear you one last time
Baby, I am never messing this up
I'm sending out my feelings in a digital love
This winter is so cold, but it will never kill us
So don't you ever die
Baby, we’ll survive this night
Oh
Soul, I am spent
I’ve been spending these days all cooped up
Waiting for the sun to rise
Singing songs no one knows the names of
I always thought her voice sounded similar to yours
But this is no night to die
So let’s do our best to never get tired
Soul:
Heart, I know that you are there
This connection that we share
So don’t give up till this ends
You’re my Pop Star Boyfriend
Heart & Soul:
Baby, I am never messing this up
I'm sending out my feelings in a digital love
This winter is so cold, but it will never kill us
So don't you ever die
Baby, we’ll survive this night
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11. |
Heart (Reprise)
02:26
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Heart:
Woke up and I'm sweating like hell
Checked the time; it's 3 AM
So I grab my phone and it lights up
I see you're online as well
Called you
You pick up and ask what's up
I talk about my dream
I saw my body hanged on the ceiling
You were crying on the phone
Now's the first time you have really cried
You sound exactly like in my dream
You say, "Me too."
"In mine, you were crying too."
Bro, it's alright
Cause it's only for this night
Let's make plans for when we can reunite
Just set aside
And this time
We will recognize on sight
Make it count
Cause our time on this earth is finite
Still, we’re alive
And Soul is in my life.
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12. |
Toxic Masculinity
01:16
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Soul:
You’re waiting at the usual spot
And I see your face
When I wave, you smile
We hold hands and walk across the night
I see you let out a breath
As I feel your warmth
Only one thing’s on my mind
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die
愛はどんなんだい (What is love?)
Stars glisten and they pave our way
It’s our stage; blow away
We can show our true selves
In the busy street
We stop our tracks
You inch closer and close your eyes
Then time stops
Your lips touching mine
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die
愛はどんなんだい (What is love?)
死にたくない
死にたくない
I don’t wanna die
We can feel their gazes, judging us
I open my eyes and your face is drenched with tears
I ask what’s wrong, furious at the world
And you tell me you’re so happy right now
We walk until we reach a crowdless park
It starts snowing and the stars are like stagelights
Because right now
I just want to hear you sing
Please sing, my dear
永遠に生きられるだろうか (Could I live forever)
永遠に君のために (Always gonna be for your sake)
I’m not quite feeling like myself...
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Heart & Soul
05:13
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Heart:
I've been feeling tired
From all the bullshit in this world
But I know that you are always there to listen to me
I don't worry if you're sick of me anymore
Cause I can trust you to always be honest with me
My heart's on fire
Burning up with love
But your soul is there to keep me from blowing up
So let me be your Pop Star Boyfriend
Bro, I can't wait 'till I see your face again
Soul:
I’m afraid of being ostracized
This apathetic act’s a front
That I use to deflect my feelings
But ever since I met you
I don’t wanna lie no more
Cause when you sing
I am reassured that we can be us
So take that cringe and turn it into a song
You can write a story as good as the ones that inspired you
Don’t throw that love away, that’s part of us
See how beautiful it is that her songs made you spark
Play those three chords; it’s a show, then
Boy, I can't wait 'till I see your face again
Heart:
Yeah, love is scary
But I can’t help it
Whether it’s cute boys or a good song
It’s not my fault
That’s how we learned to stop giving a shit and love the music
Overcoming all your fears and becoming your heroes
It’s cold but we can survive this winter
So just hang on for one more night; this isn’t the end
And I can't wait 'till I see your face again!
Heart & Soul:
As we get older every day feels longer
And although I know I'll struggle
I will do my best to never get tired
I know Chicago will be cold tomorrow
Let's cash in on our thin blood and have another one
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JohnJRenns South Korea
The former musical alias of Cecily Renns. cecilyrenns.bandcamp.com
“Frankly, pop
culture is a bit better at rocking people emotionally than the better chunk of the so-called fine arts.” - Kadono Kouhei, authour of ‘Boogiepop’
“...소위 팝컬쳐라 불리는 게 있다. 예술이라 하기엔 좀 그렇긴 한데 하여튼 사람의 마음을 뒤흔드는 점에 간해서는 어정쩡한 파인 아트보다 힘이 세기도 하는 놈이다.” - 카도노 코우헤이, '부기팝' 작가
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