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Discordant or: How I Learned to Music but Hate the Theory

by JohnJRenns

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Discordant 02:24
here we go again makin some music and shit just open that FL studio the easiest thing to do, hey yeah thats right ill open that sgm the piano roll will be my domain whats so fucking hard bout that But i do have to admit this lifes not that easy as it sounds theres just one little problem something about my melody its Discordant why is it so damn hard to find the right harmony its so Discordant listen to it then youll see its so Discordant alright then i think ive figured it out theres something wrong about the chord progression ive just gotta fix that then but it looks like the chord is all fine and nice then is it the fucking scale thats off i dont know cause its too confusing maybe this life isnt for me maybe i should give up and quit composing no no no I cant say that even if its hard its so fun its Discordant look at all these people saying my music sucks but its really alright and well this is the life ive chosen ill believe in it PIANO SOLO wait there we go, sorry its Discordant why is it so damn hard to find the right harmony its so Discordant listen to it then youll see its so Discordant its so discordant.
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Enjoy It While It Lasts cause everything is gonna be gone soon nothing in life is finite so Enjoy It for now spending your days worrying bout those things but you dont have time for that, life is not waiting for you (so go out) there are milions and bilions of people who are less fortunate than you so its time to get action paying rents, paying taxes making just enough money to feed yourself life may be full of hardships but when you put your mind into it, miracles can happen so Enjoy It While It Lasts whatre you doing here, in front of the computer think of all the things you can do with your knowledge you can help the old lady across the street or tell that punk to go fuck himself all these things you can do when you put your mind to it possibilities are endless when you believe in it just believe in yourself so fucking hard it causes a hope explosion just try it and see what happens just Enjoy It While It Lasts.
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why cant i do it why cant i bring myself together it seems so easy just one of those days when i cant look myself in the eye cause theyre full of fear i cant get work done because im just a useless, stupid, no talent Idiot even though i want to get through all this inside my heart, i know i cant do it everyone says to keep trying harder and ill get better at it, one day surely but i dont think thats possible cause i just cant do the things i want to do goddamnit I Am An Idiot im just a lowly fool doesnt deserve to be one but ill keep going forwards I Am An Idiot no skills, no motivations but still ill try my best they are all cheering me on is this the end then is this the end of the road for me i have tried so hard i refuse to believe in this reality i cant handle it anymore maybe its alright maybe i can get better at it through endless efforts just the thought of it might make it worth a try should i do it then is this the way for me no i cant do it, theres no way out for me here id give up after a single try no hope, only despair awaits for me in the dark everythings turned its back on me goddamnit I Am An Idiot no salvation for me just a talentless hack but i want to change somehow I Am An Idiot a despairing idiot but all these people inspiring me ill have to do it for them I Am An Idiot im just a lowly fool doesnt deserve to be one but ill keep going forwards cause im just an idiot who doesnt know a thing.
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Keep your eyes on the airwaves Don't look down if you don't want to fall Out here, ain't nobody dancing Up in the air you ain't nobody at all Keep your forward direction Look for signs of the enemy, enemy You're too far gone for protection I am a spaceship who's looking for love Open your doors and shoot your missiles Blow away everybody you pass Just a bunch of peculiar people Looking for a party to crash Keep your back to the sunlight Keep your eyes on the rubber T-Rex Save your teardrops for later You're going to need them for the part that comes next Wake up trashed in the ocean Look for signs of the enemy, enemy These drones can feel emotion You are a spaceship who's looking for love (yeah) Open the doors and shoot your missiles Blow away everybody you pass Just a bunch of peculiar people Looking for a party to crash
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another day at the net, look at these people all nice and kind also caring individuals with their own problems, i want their love so please everyone, Look At Me, Look At Me, who am i suppose to talk to about all the problems i have im a mess, so listen to me ill Vent, i hope somebody does care cause my problems are very important ill Vent so everyone knows that im a complete utter fool heres a good list: bills to pay, work to do, even if i have lots of time to do work but i really think that this shitpost is priority still oh i know, yes i know, thats all my fault but i havent even gone to the part where "they" did "that" blah blah blah, everythings fucking--- i could go on forever, my life is a wreck or maybe just maybe, thats just how life ls i can Vent about my things, complaining away but maybe just maybe, theres a solution BREAKITDOWN i wonder if my life will stay the same like a train ride that never stops at anything i can find something to hold on to if i try, just try (if i just try) i know its all a sob story i know everyones gone through it before but just because somebody says so, it doesnt mean that theyre meaningless, yeah lets go again romance and crushes are kind of bullshit but my heart is saying i like you, i "like" like you so then who do i love schoolwork and homework, did i say schoolwork, oh yeah my homework is due on tuesday but i had a damn month to prepare look, im tired of this life, this life of despair, but then again in the end, all my "problems" are solved in just one night maybe i shouldnt look at life with this kind of mentality i just want somebody to love me, but love is overrated, so Look At Me, Look At Me, Look At Me, Look At Me, Vent.
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twenty first of march the birth of a boy destiny awaits him that day that fateful day its been Fifteen Years now and i still don't know that im just a little brat i dont know my place in the world or anywhere else pretending i am mature but thats a front, i dont get anything Fifteen Years Old Man feels like a century instead Fifteen Years Old Man but still just a kid days go by in a whim a month then a year cant keep track of the time i tell those boys and girls like an arrogant sage, "young ins these days now" how hypocritical of me theyre wiser and smarter and knows better than me here but i cant help but act dumb cause im a dick, thats just who i am Fifteen Years Old Man self centered prick no one likes Fifteen Years Old Man maybe i should change no way, i like me, hes a cool new funny guy even if he does some bullshit he is what i am, the only person who knows that i should stay as myself (no way, ill stay as myself till the end of time) Fifteen Years Old Man even if im an idiot im a Fifteen Years Old Man so im happy just with that (FIfteen Years Old, im Fifteen Years Old so im fine) Fifteen Years Old Man feels like a century instead Fifteen Years Old Man but still just a kid.
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its not easy when someone asks you a question or the meaning of your phrase youll write up something with hard words that no one says but this shouldn't be an essay, im just asking i know you are trying to get across your points clear and detailed right on time but i honestly dont understand a single thing you said so ill tell you what Stop Saying the Same Things Over and Over its not really helping your point Stop Saying the Same Things Over and Over again come up with a better word i cant believe it you wrote five paragraphs explaining your very simple point i get you want to look smart by talking long but you have already lost my attention is it so damn hard to just speak a normal human being without repeating your point ten times, then another five i think i got what you mean you can stop saying stuff now but looks like youre not done yet holy shit, can you shut up for a second i dont think i can handle more of this your annoying voice has tired me so ill have to say, to shut you up ill say the same things too i dont care anymore lets Stop Saying the Same Things Over and Over its not really helping us out but well keep Saying the Same Things Over and Over because we suck at writing.
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if you want it bad enough, then things will get better but that's not the truth and you know better so you're trying hard enough and nothing is better but you won't quit trying 'cause you know better nothing comes easy and nothing comes free but it just seems like i can't get out of this heap of shit i must have stumbled into by accident disorder and script i must've stumbled into it can i just get my body back i like dogs much better i like dogs much better than cats and wolves and rats and bats that i use when i get imaginative i like dogs much better than people could ever be
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how i love you so without you i cant live in this world, no way yet i am alone, but thats fine by me cause youre in Somewhere Happy right now look at you smiling, cept i cant look at it youre just a person on the internet one fish out of many, not special but i cant help but laugh when youre there with me things flies by when you are here the world stops with time youre funny, charming, interesting, other adjectives maybe if i say these things you will be by my side when i need you i can hope thats why i love you your aura is addicting and endless, indeed i wish to see it again, but its alright you cant stay cause you must go Somewhere Happy look at you talking, ill just lurk around a bit you know, have i told you that i love you um oh wow, looks like you werent expecting that its alright, im trash, you dont have to reply just wait, dont leave me in the dark like this okay then, so thats how it is now i know, i fucked up, give me a chance im rambling, sorry for everything you were all i had, the sunshine in my life maybe it was all in my mind like a dream anyways, its fine, cause youve told me one thing that i dont have to worry anymore now thats why i loved you but in reality i was futile, useless though, its alright because i may be sad, but youre in Somewhere Happy right now.
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Headcanon 03:28
everybody please listen to my Headcanons and my theories they are correct, follows the rules and if you even try to refute them i will kill you so shut the fuck up right now so many opinions all around but they dont know that im the only truth in this world so ill teach them my wonderful theories cause my Headcanons are all that matter in my eyes they are all right, think of me as the one true voice of course i am right, look at all the evidence here i dont care if the author said so cause that ones left i dont care cause i cant look at myself people praise me for my Headcanons even though theyre all bullshit, meaningless and pointless but fuck you, i like making Headcanons and theories cause theyre my passion and my legacy even if my proof is all made up even when theyre post canon theyre all important as much as the rest so dont dare to tell me to give it up cause all that matters in the end is to have some fun so many opinions all around but they dont know that im the only truth in this world so ill teach them my wonderful theories cause my Headcanons are all that matter in my eyes to me and me only.
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Some teams never make their own memes never follow their dreams really quite depressing but my team always makes up shitposts never falling for ghosts our rips always impressing Wacky warriors of the music scene, Spending our time in C A N M T, Living with homestuck infamy, In our zany C A N M T cool and new music team just take a step right in and buckle in for a ride cool and new music team no team better than C A N M T people say we suck ass (cool and new, cool and new) and while we do suck ass (cool and new) theyre a little bit wrong (cool and new, cool and new) we also suck dicks (cool and new, cool and new) but well never give up in trying to entertain (cool and new, cool and new, cool and new) at least we tried (cool and new, cool and new) us C A N M T Some teams sort their songs with high bars stupid jokes don't go far don't find them appealing; but my team never lets a gag die injokes piled so high can't even see the ceiling If stupid music's what you want to see, you should join with C A N M T Our albums are all fun and free, so come chill with C A N M T! cool and new music team theres no need to worry, we have your shitposts right here cool and new music team slaves to o, but we are C A N M T cool and new music team just take a step right in and buckle in for a ride cool and new music team no team better than C A N M T
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Tsundere 03:53
Tsundere hiding my feelings Tsundere no one shall ever know moe is a special thing indeed just slap a weird trait and youre done unrelatable but cute character: complete ever wonder how its like to be unable to reveal your love for him just because of some guys fetishes its not like i love you so dont imply anything im just telling you all this cause im suffering inside well, maybe you are fine but this worlds not letting me confess its not like i couldve anyways Tsundere---oh my god is that his notebook there im suppose to bring him it in this situation everythings so predictable instead of being normal, i have to act mildly frustrated and flustered yanderes and other deres dont know this feeling of despair, agony, frustration but i have no choice but to be a Tsundere Tsundere cant show true emotions Tsundere its completely fictional i have to put on this facade all for the sake of "character development" though i dont even think i like him all that much but youve been keep listening to me i dont know what this feeling is suppose to be maybe i like its not like i love you so dont imply anything im just telling you all this cause im suffering inside well, maybe you are fine but this worlds not letting me confess its not like i couldve anyways one day, ill be free at last.
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On the day she finally left me She left one thing behind Just a small box on the table That she wanted me to find There was something bad inside it It was something that I should have left alone Now everything is standing still It was only my head that made it revolve Everything was fine until It was awful instead Now watch me dissolve It was mine now, something secret Something precious and rare And then it changed me, and I liked it Now I wish it wasn't there Would you cancel my appointments Pretty sure I won't be coming in today 'cause everything is standing still It was only my head that made it revolve Everything was fine until It was awful instead Now watch me dissolve Everything is standing still It was only my head that made it revolve Everything was fine until It was awful instead Now watch me dissolve From inside these limousines The world is looking darker every day And you wonder if that means That when you close your eyes it goes away It goes away Tie up your loose ends one by one Your time is almost through Even your angels think you're done They roll their eyes at you Because it's you Who's getting bigger every day And it's you Who's gonna drive them all away As they turn to go You can forgive them for they know not what they do The world belongs to you Staying inside, lying in bed Noticing something that's not there Follow my heart, follow my head I'll follow anything that might get me somewhere I quit, I'm done Cause I don't think it's gonna turn out OK It's no fair, it's no fun If every time it's gonna end the same way: Me zero Big bad world one
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Do You Remember The things we've done together Or have you forgotten them The times we sung our anthem And I know you are not here So I tell myself my fears In the hopes they reach out But I know that I'm an idiot who can't do a thing alone Though I know truly What you would say to me Time and time, in a row You'd say "Don't worry, there's tomorrow" Do You Remember? The words you've uttered to me. Though the words were so obvious to you... Those phrases, I could not forget. But you now have forgotten me. And I realize your words had flaws... However, despite all cruelty, that's just how life is. So I'll head onwards. I'll make your "tomorrow" my "today." And since I know that you're not here I stop myself from my fears My hopes are full, bulletproof In the end, believing is all I can do to step forwards So I Remember what I'd say back to you, truly With determination I'd say "Not tomorrow, but for today" Not tomorrow... But for today.
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album length(16 songs, 11 original 5 remixes): 48 minutes

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released April 15, 2017

album by JohnJRenns (I DID THE THING)

part of the album "art" provided by o (please read canwc) mspfanventures.com?s=14113

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special thanks to My Voice

tracks 4 8 11 13 and 15 are remixes of songs from these artists
Bowman: iambowman.com
nouns: www.facebook.com/NOUNS-265189506949493/
Jonathan Coulton: www.jonathancoulton.com
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JohnJRenns South Korea

The former musical alias of Cecily Renns. cecilyrenns.bandcamp.com

“Frankly, pop culture is a bit better at rocking people emotionally than the better chunk of the so-called fine arts.” - Kadono Kouhei, authour of ‘Boogiepop’

“...소위 팝컬쳐라 불리는 게 있다. 예술이라 하기엔 좀 그렇긴 한데 하여튼 사람의 마음을 뒤흔드는 점에 간해서는 어정쩡한 파인 아트보다 힘이 세기도 하는 놈이다.” - 카도노 코우헤이, '부기팝' 작가
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