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ILY
02:43
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Staring at you in the parking lot
I was waiting for you to buy groceries and whatnot
And when I look at your eyes and their green hue
I have to wonder if this moment is true
But no matter what happens
Please know that I love you
Making small talk and I bite my tongue
You must think I’m the dumbest girl in the whole wide world
But when I say these darkest thoughts in my mind
You look me in the eyes and tell me it’s alright
So no matter what happens, we’ll make it through
And no matter what happens
Please know that I love you
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2. |
Dearly Loved
03:18
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Dearly loved
So sad that you had to let go of it all
So was it at least worth it in the end?
Doesn't matter in the end
Dear my love
Writing a single page of pure fluff
We all know that nothing is that easy
You should have never pursued this dream
Dearly loved
Dearly loved, oh oh
8 o'clock
I bring you some coffee with a knock
Grinding away at your masterpiece
Never courting your miss
In our home
We won't have to feel alone
Precariously carving out the unknown
Not a place; but we can call it home
Dearly loved
Dearly loved, oh oh
Dearly loved
Don't say it was all for naught
So what is ever worth it in the end?
Doesn't matter in the end
Dear my love
You're like a raindrop from above
Always turning something into a dream
You should have never pursued this dream
Dearly loved
Dearly loved, oh oh
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3. |
The Answer
03:10
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Let me inch in closer
I want to hear you sing
Oh baby you know
Know how that song goes
The kind of melody makes you shine and glow
One time you told me something
Two of us shared a heartbeat
Can you believe
That we exist in the same time and place?
Baby don't hide your face
You can cry facing me
Yeah
One two three
Can't you see
That I'm falling helplessly?
There's gotta be an answer to why it happened to me
Close your eyes
Let my lips touch yours
And fall into bliss
There's gotta be an answer to why it happened to me
i don't know what this feeling's about
i guess we will just have to find out
listen close, i may never say this twice
but now that we have reached this height
we've reached our final form
it's our home.
One two three
Can't you see
That I'm falling helplessly?
There's gotta be an answer to why it happened to me
Close your eyes
Let my lips touch yours
And fall into bliss
There's gotta be an answer to why it happened to me
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4. |
The Strength
03:22
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Girl, do you remember
What you said last December
Don't expect you to; I'm just asking you
But I remember every word that you had said
"
'round here they judge according to
what grants them immediate happiness
they don't heed ear to dissonance
but all you need is the right note
to stand up on your own
"
That's what you said to me back then
We're growing stronger every day
We'll get some courage on the way
So I won't hesitate to say
That I'm in tears
And I'll tell you all my fears
And you can always take your time
You can do yours and I'll do mine
But please just don't leave me behind
Revitalize my life
Tell me that you're alright
Yeah, let's go skinny-dive on the pool
Breaking all their rules
Love unrefined in the mess we left behind
Music's just one way to communicate your feelings
It's not all there is, but it's best I got
Though, often times, I only seem to make it worse
God must've been fucking 'round when he made people the way that they are now
But in one sense, then, I've got to thank her for making us a mess
Because where is the fun in never saying something wrong
We're growing stronger every day
We'll get some courage on the way
So I won't hesitate to say
That I'm in tears
And I'll tell you all my fears
And you can always take your time
You can do yours and I'll do mine
But please just don't leave me behind
Revitalize my life
Tell me that you're alright
Yeah, let's go skinny-dive on the pool
Breaking all their rules
Love unrefined in the mess we left behind
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5. |
The Gift
04:08
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This winter, I gave you my everything
Can you say the same for you
I'm singing this song so that I don't forget
I'm singing this song of regret
This little hand-made gift you made
How could I get rid of it?
I don't have to wear this bracelet
It remains collecting dust inside my closet
A hundred thousand years may not erase my memory from this place
Shedding tears cause of your face
This Friday night
You don't have to come back here
It's snowing out here in Paris
I realized you weren't for me
Spring is almost upon us
This Friday night
You don't have to come back here
I'm packing my things now
Don't dare to come back now
This one-room apartment's just home to tearful thoughts now
I can feel the snow on my cheeks
They blend in with the tears that roll off my dreams
Oh, dearly loved, answer this
Do you feel the same way as I do?
Maybe we're singing the same song
I can only speculate because you're now gone
A hundred thousand years may not erase my memory from this place
Shedding tears cause of your face
This Friday night
You don't have to come back here
It's snowing out here in Paris
I realized you weren't for me
Spring is almost upon us
This Friday night
You don't have to come back here
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6. |
Aromanticism
03:01
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(in a row) they say it happens once or twice
(here we go) but i can't even put up a fight
(now i know) i never really loved you
(she's aro) love just ain't something i can do.
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7. |
Tsundere
03:42
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Tsundere
Hiding my feelings
Tsundere
Hear my heart beating
Saw you on my way to school today
You call out, and I say
“Don’t talk like we are friends now”
But somehow, it isn’t what I mean
Never changing
We’re always together
She teased me, and I just scoffed
To her, I’m just her best friend
There’s no way we could get together
It’s not like I love you but I can’t shake this feeling off
I wish I could tell you this, cause I don’t know what to do
Well, maybe you’re fine but there’s something that will not let me confess
It's not like I could've anyways
Tsunde-
Retorting without thinking about it
As if I’m playing out a script
Following all the cliches
You know, it’s funny how those stories come true
Never saying out loud what I’m thinking
She must think I'm the dumbest girl in the whole world
Yanderes and other deres don't know this feeling of
Despair, agony, frustration
But I have no choice but to be a Tsundere
Tsundere
Honto no kimochi
Tsundere
Zenbu uso desho
It’s not like I love you but I can’t shake this feeling off
I wish I could tell you this, cause I don’t know what to do
Well, maybe you’re fine but there’s something that will not let me confess
“Maybe I like-”
Ah, goddamnit, that slipped out of me
Hey, don’t mind me, I meant nothing
But she’s looking at me now, blushing
What’s that look supposed to mean?
I am silent and she’s waiting
Then I laugh and say, “Yeah, just kidding!”
It’s not like this is something I could do
But one day, I'll say "I love you"
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8. |
Winter
02:56
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In the end
Winter has come and gone
Last year has felt so long, I thought I wouldn’t live till dawn
But here we are in this mess
Created by the very things we didn’t address
I just wanna walk with you
Wanna hold you, wanna talk to you
Hold out till it’s February
Until they’re gone
I don’t care bout anything
What the hell do they got to do with us?
Reasons are not necessary
Come enjoy this ride with me
And I’ll stay with you
If that’s alright for you
High above the clouds I’m thinking how to spend the day with you
It’s a Saturday
We can go out and play
High above the clouds I’m thinking how to blow this night away
I guess I’m going on the long way home
I miss you so much, I feel alone
You know it’s true
That I can’t do a thing
If without you
You say I’m too apathetic
Well, I know that I’m pathetic
But is it so wrong of me to be selfish?
And the world could end
But still, I would spend
Every moment together with you
Hold your hand and never let it go
Pray that we won’t die
Cause long as we’re alive
We can face another day
We can make it a better place
And I’ll stay with you
If that’s alright for you
High above the clouds I’m thinking how to spend the day with you
It’s a Saturday
We can go out and play
High above the clouds I’m thinking how to blow this night away
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9. |
ILY Reprise
02:15
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Staring at you in the parking lot
I was waiting for you to buy groceries and whatnot
And when I look at your eyes and their green hue
I have to wonder if this moment is true
But no matter what happens
Please know that I love you
Making small talk and I bite my tongue
You must think I’m the dumbest girl in the whole wide world
But when I say these darkest thoughts in my mind
You look me in the eyes and tell me it’s alright
So no matter what happens, we’ll make it through
And no matter what happens
Please know that I love you
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10. |
The Mess
04:38
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This cold is killing my heart
And you aren’t here to warm me up
It ends as soon as it starts
If only had you said enough
In the last night of December
We promised to remember
So where did you run off to
I won’t ask for forgiveness
Cause I knew this would happen
Stay up until dawn
Working on a song
Thinking about how you’re gone
Told you all my fears
Let you see my tears
But now you left me here
Fade into the night
Choke up at your sight
Curse your name out of spite
It’s another day without you around
In the mess we left behind
Memories left behind
I wrote them in a song
But they came out wrong
Another magic phrase
In the newtype winter phase
2020’s done
Our problems are not gone
Just another year to look forward to
We could start anew
But we always knew
It was never gonna work out the way I thought it would
Stay up until dawn
Working on a song
Thinking about how you’re gone
Told you all my fears
Let you see my tears
But now you left me here
Fade into the night
Choke up at your sight
Curse your name out of spite
It’s another day without you around
In the mess we left behind
We always knew it
But I guess we didn’t mind
The signs were all there
The mess we left behind
It’s hard to look back
It always hurts to rewind
It keeps coming back
Our love left undefined
The past is gone now
I wonder if you made it
And if you’re thinking about me, alone
Well, I’ll be waiting
Don’t let this winter define us
Don’t forget
Don’t forget about me
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JohnJRenns South Korea
The former musical alias of Cecily Renns. cecilyrenns.bandcamp.com
“Frankly, pop
culture is a bit better at rocking people emotionally than the better chunk of the so-called fine arts.” - Kadono Kouhei, authour of ‘Boogiepop’
“...소위 팝컬쳐라 불리는 게 있다. 예술이라 하기엔 좀 그렇긴 한데 하여튼 사람의 마음을 뒤흔드는 점에 간해서는 어정쩡한 파인 아트보다 힘이 세기도 하는 놈이다.” - 카도노 코우헤이, '부기팝' 작가
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